creative... block?

painting shows me my soul on canvas agony escape hunger love care worry sorrow longing all come out. stress is shown through burning holes of brush strokes.

my release: a symphony of beaks. i wish to catch them all in a net - a big brown balloon.

i am one! caught and used for my magnificent song. but the one who has caught me i've allowed to use me. i would let that one cut my beautiful wings off and drain the blood from my veins. happy?

love makes me unoriginal. pressure frustration horror pain DRIVE my creativity.

my catch 22 at age 20: i am in love with my creativity.